relationship

hi i hope some one can help me. My partner and me have a big problem and it started 2years ago. I was a heavy hash user and ended up dealing and was caught with a kilo and a half of hash. I went to prison and got bail the 2 of us left ireland and went to germany to my parents. I promissed my feance that i stop smoking but my sister was a dealer so i got it for cheap and didnt stop. My partner got preg and started 2 bleed i asked my family to bring her to the doc but no one would and i couldnt because started a new job. So she left me to go back 2 ireland i couldnt come back but before she left i said to her that i dont care if her or the baby dies i didnt mean it was the drugs. She came on hols over the next 3 months and after that i said i come back with her and would she wait for me if i did and she said yes. Witch she did. Im out 3 months now from a 2year sentence i got out early. We have a 16 month old son. I promissed her al be better when im out. But when i got out she wanted me 2 live in a different town and i am. But then i started a bit mad got drunk and got arrested and in court dis month for not leaving ta pub when asked by the cops. And now she is saying that i have ta grow up and that she dont love me any more and sick of giving me chances. I asked her if she wanted to break up and she said dont know i said i need a yes or no answer but she couldnt give me that. I normally stay at weekends. Last weekend i had to stay in spare room. She said al has to stop sex stoped 5 weeks ago cuddles and kisses this weekend. She went out last nite so i asked her was she with any one and al she said was that she had 1 offer but if he would of been last man on earth she wouldnt touch him. So i asked her if he was gud looking would she have but didnt get an answer to that. We stoped txting cos i want 2 give her space as she asked for. But what can i do 2 make her happy again and 4 her to love me again?