hi aye seen a married man fur 4 year now hes came and goin and it breaks my heart

hi a would like u 2 help aye have been seen a married man off and on well when he feels like it it been going on fur about4 years now and aye do truly luv him and he nows that am 25 and hes 43 the problem is hes got a wife she nows about us she pghones now and again 2 ask if am ok but aye speak 2 her so i can speak him the thing is when he comes baCK THEN HE LEAVE IT BREAK MY HEART THAT A DONT WANT 2 BE HERE ITS REALLY HARD AS AV NEVER LUVED ANYONE AS MUCH AS AV LUVED HIM A NO ITS NOT RIGHT BUT A WAKE UP EVERYDAY THINKING OV HIM AND WHATS HE DOING IT ANOUYING ME NOW AS A NO HE IS A ARSOHOLE AND NOT WORTH IT BUT A LUV HIM HOW CAN A GET RID OV THAT LUV AND ALL BE OK AYE ALSO HAD HIS SON AT MY DOOR WITH KNIFES SAYING HE WAS GOING 2 STAB ME CAUSE A WENT WITH HIS FATHERS IT JUST 2 MUCH NOW A JUST WANT THAT KLUV FEELING AWAY AS IT NOT WORTH IT AND A NO THAT BUT IT HOW DO YOU GET RID OV IT AS IT REALY IS FUCKING MY HEAD UP LIFE IS BAD ENOUGH WITHOUT THIS :|