new and confused, please help

[lostandalone]

hi, im new here just found the site today, could do with some advice if anyone can help. feel really down and lost and dont know what to do anymore, ty

[loners]

I'm not sure I can help, cos of being new too. Why are you feeling lost?
xx

[lostandalone]

hi, thanks for the reply. im not sure why i feel so lost anymore. everything has just got so much worse and whatever medication i try it still doesnt help. its like the only way out is to just go and that thought doesnt bother me anymore. i just dont see any other way out

[jojotheyoyo]

you really need to talk to someone perhaps your doctor about your medication. i think we all go through times where you can be in a room full of people and feel alone and lost. sometimes writing down all the goodthings in your life no matter how small can make you think about better things. when i felt like this after have my son mylist just was the fact the post had come sounds daft but day by day my list got bigger, then when i spoke to a councellor i found out why i was feeling like that some things getting bigger the more you hide them away

[lostandalone]

yea i understand and i have tryed to talk to someone but i cant face anyone now, i cant go out or let anyone in where im staying. i know i need to see someone again but it just doesnt help me as the fact that i dont want to be here anymore wont go away, the more i think about it the stronger it is but i cant seem to ignore it any longer. its like a crazy roundabout

[loners]

How old are you? Are you on medication for depression? If you feel unable to go to your doctor because you don't feel able to leave the house, would you be able to ring your doctor and explain this to him, perhaps he/she can give you a home visit. I can see it would be difficult for you to let the doctor in, but if you explain this to your doctor, perhaps you can leave your door open and he/she can walk in. If that is too hard ask about changing your medication by post.
You can email the Samaritans here  jo@samaritans.org
There is always a way out of any rut, you may just need to take baby steps to come back to us. The main thing at the moment, is not to be too hard on yourself. Everyone makes mistakes in life, you've made a great start by contacting on a message board, and I'm proud of you for making that step. Everytime you contact someone you are stepping forward. Please email the samaritans, they can help with anything that is very confidential, and perhaps point you in the right direction when you are ready. You've made a start, that's the main thing. Well Done!
xxx

[lostandalone]

im 20, yes am on meds for depression and anxiety but they are not helping and even when i changed them the new ones didnt help. ive had some MH people com round to where im staying and they know how i feel but i have to be assessed i just cant see anything working other than me just leaving for good

[loners]

Email the samaritans, you can't just rely on the meds alone, there's a little spark inside you, I can tell there is, and although you see no way out, you are too much of a fighter to just give up. When will they come and assess you?
xxx

[lostandalone]

there used to be a spark, maybe. but not now. im already being assesed but havnt seen them in a week or two and cant get in touch with them even tho i have left messages. i know its not just down to the medication but the feeling of not excisting just seems so right. ive always thought it, its just got to bad to control

[loners]

Who are they, these people whom you haven't seen for a week or two? The feeling of not wanting to exist could well be down to the medication. What is it you take and how much of it?
Tell me about your mum and dad?
xxx

[lostandalone]

some people from mental health team, they were asked to see me.
i was on citalopram then changed to fluoxitine which i have run out off but it doesnt work for me anyway. i dont have a doc at the moment either as have moved again so couldnt stay at old docs as its out of the area im in now. as for my mum and dad, i dont talk to them really and never see them, which is totally fine by me

[loners]

I think you must know of course that you can still see a doctor even if you are out of the area, and when you feel better you can register with your new doctor. It does really seem that the meds aren't helping at all, it's very brave of you to keep on going like you are. I think you are very courageous to carry on even though your meds have run out. What did you mum and dad do to make you feel so negative towards them?

[mandie23]

please look back on here you are not alone and hi i am new on here today,  just found your message, what advise do you need let me see if i can offer help, and a friendly ear

hi, im new here just found the site today, could do with some advice if anyone can help. feel really down and lost and dont know what to do anymore, ty