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i was watching the show today and hell it ht a nerve,it was about a lady who been hrt over the past n cant trust her man.ok here i go ,i was abused by my grandad when i was young i found out later in life my mother knew this but she still made me go there alone,i had boyfriends as a young girl love em n leave em sort of thing but if i was late in id get the verbule abuse n once she pulled my knickers down in front of my brohers n dad to see if id had sex,she kicked me out whn i was 15 for being late so at 12 at night i was on the streets n thats when i went to live with my boyfriend mark and for 4 yrs he beat me n cheated on me when i finnaly got out of there i met this great guy mck who i married but yes he cheated on me even before we married but we had a child so i foregave n got on with life as my life was my kids but he did it again he worked away so ill never know how many times he did it we have 5 great kids now n like i said my life was my kids but there all grown up now and its my time so i thought mick is 13 yrs older than me so i started to go out with the girls n enjoy myself which he didnt mind you see although he did what he did he loved me very much and as long as im happy i could do it,but the trouble is the past caught up with me mother crapping on me again n me thinking more of what he did to me so i tried to end my life,any way a fews mths down the line i had an affair n my best friend who i thought was a best friend told all my family but he wants us to try again as he loves me so much but what i didnt know i was suffering from depression im getting help of the doc now but im not sure its what i want now but until im better i dont know what i want or to do for the best this is the first time ive let it all out so thank you jeremy xxxx